Let Patience Have Her Perfect Work

No Strain

Be calm, no matter what may befall you. Rest in Me. Be patient, and let patience have her perfect work. Never think things overwhelming. How can you be overwhelmed when I am with you?

Do not feel the strain of life. There is no strain for My children. Do you not see I am a Master Instrument-maker? Have I not fashioned each part? Do I not know just what it can bear without a strain? Would I, the maker of so delicate an instrument, ask of it anything that could destroy or strain?

No! The Strain is only when you are serving another, the world, fame, the good opinion of men - or carrying two days‘ burden on the one day. Remember that it must not be.

Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for him. Psalm 37:7

From 365 One-Minute Meditations: God Calling edited by A.J. Russell. ©2008 by John Hunt Publishing Ltd., New Alresford, Hants, UK. All rights reserved.

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The year has started out well. I haven't felt this kind of a joy in a long time. I am hopeful, confident, happy! I feel completely blessed. My son is the most beautiful gift I have ever been given. He's a delight, a complete and utter source of amusement and an endless supply of pure bright love. Oh my god, I love that boy. He's thee best part of my life. I couldn't be filled with any more gratitude to God nor any more love for that little soul. While I anticipate with joy what kind of man he will be (skipping teenage years maybe?), I savor and devour every little squeak, every little non-sensical statement, every little festive laughter this 4-year old person brings to this world.

And the bounty begins. I have several opportunities to earn money in the month of January, one which may lead to a full-time job with a good salary. My goal this year is to do well financially without sacrificing any of my time with Oliver. It may cost my personal time, but with Oliver's new schedule, I have every other weekend child-free. That gives me time to develop my own business outside of employment.

In addition, financially we will be facing some things together (my soon-to-be X and I), and I will soon know whether or not I can stay in our home. It's not that I don't want to or can't, it's a matter of getting a steady income and handing the decision over to the banks. As well, I am “doing the math” to see if living here is a sound choice. I hate to leave, trust me, for several reasons, one being that it's Oliver's home, his one source of stability in his mobile, transient lifestyle. (A lifestyle I did not want for him, and yes, there is still some bitterness to dissolve.)

I will also be divorced soon. It could be as early as February, if all goes well. We are meeting today (my soon-to-be-X and I) to discuss our goals. I have a long list which I have shared with him. He responded somewhat positively, and we both know there is a need to discuss things in person, sleep on it, work thru it. It's difficult to compromise on a goal. I do need to let go of the fight. I'm tired of fighting. I want to cut my losses and move on. I know what I want, and I have worked toward that. I have my eye on the prize and am doing what I need to do.

Today it's apparent that the world is a place of abundance. I reluctantly prescribe metaphorical and new age phraseology, but it's true. I have heard this message more times than not lately: let patience have her perfect work. That's a beautiful, powerful request.

Oscar Wilde wrote, “In this world there are only two tragedies. One is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it.” Allow me to prove that paradox wrong. I believe I have everything I want and more. There is more to come. Oliver and I have an enduring blessing, without sadness. Not only are dreams possible, many are already true.

Am I prepared for disappointment? Absolutely! I'm not going to let that dissuade me from trying and giving it my best. I am positive — I know it in my heart — good things are in my future. Oliver and I are OK. We have a nice place to live at this moment, and we will always have a nice place to live, whether it's here or elsewhere. Finally, as I once did a while back, I have complete trust in God.

The opportunities are flowing my way, the sky is clearing, my heart is free, my mind is open, my spirit is confident, my soul is grateful and my demeanor stands tall.

Everything looks good from up here. Baby, it took a long time to get here... and it feels great! Bring it on 2013. A lot of us have been thru the muddy waters in 2012. This year so far is looking pretty good.

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We went through fire and water, but you brought us to a place of abundance. Psalm 66:12b

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