Unemployed, Hiking Peninsula State Park

This is our last visit up to the cottage for 2012. Time to let it hibernate for the winter. The weather was fantastic upon arrival despite both of my weather apps predicting colder temps and thunderstorms. (If I don't like the forecast on one app, I usually check the other.) I questioned if we should really leave our home and head up here, because back home the temps were in the 70's and it was breathtakingly sunny. Ah, one more time the weather prediction was wrong and thankfully in our favor with the last threads of a warm Fall hanging on. We of course headed for a hike. We shuffled and played thru a carpet of leaves. No one is up here anymore but the locals. We nearly had the whole forest to ourselves.













The following photos were taken by Peanut. At one point I let him have my camera. I absolutely adore these photos which fall in and out of focus. I've never seen how much fun I have with my son. I've always pictured myself  grieving, crying, disciplining or observing.



















Here's his vantage point. This is who I saw looking back at me, camera in hand. He looked like a little ball of cuteness, all hidden behind my camera, the size of his head, watching me thru the lens.



Later, I had time to relax and read God Calling. The language is a bit archaic in its effort, but it is possible to understand the essence of this reading.

No Unemployment

The Way of conquest over the material, the temporal, which all people should know, is learned by the conquest of the physical, the self-life, in each of you.

So seek, in all things, to conquer. Take this as a very definite Guidance. Circumstances are adverse. Temporal power, as money, needs to be forthcoming.

Then seek daily more and more to obtain this self-conquest, and you are gaining surely, though you may not see it, conquest over the temporal forces and powers.

Unemployment would cease if man realized this.

If he has not the work let him make himself a conquering force, beginning with the conquest of all negativity in himself, then in his home, then in all round him. He will have become a force that will be needed, and must be employed.

There are no idle hours in My Kingdom. Waiting may seem a time of inactivity, as far as the outer world is concerned, but it can, and should, be a time of great activity in the inner life, and the surrounding material plane.

God Calling, October 25th

 

God Calling is one of my daily readers. I have it as an app on my iPhone which is set to remind me to read it in case I forget. Sometimes it makes a lot of sense, sometimes not. Perhaps if I understood and could practice this exercise, I'd find a job! :)

Kidding aside, I understand there is no magic spell or daily practice that will guarantee a job. If I had to stand on my head everyday to get work, I doubt I would anyway.

If he has not the work let him make himself a conquering force, beginning with the conquest of all negativity in himself, then in his home, then in all round him. 

That is a challenge for most of us, especially when things are tough. My life has taken on a sense of awareness, part acceptance. I finally realize that I lost my husband a long long time ago, despite my mind deceiving me into hanging onto hope. What threads of hope may have been buried under the surface have been exposed and consequently broken. He's not coming back. I knew this. I knew it a long time ago. I had a hard time accepting it. I'm swallowing it now. More grief. Negativity. Sadness. I may have begun to hit a bottom. The good thing is, if in fact I am at a bottom, there's no place to go but up. I have to let go. Hanging on, even if it's just a wee tiny bit is practicing negativity.

There are no idle hours in My Kingdom. Waiting may seem a time of inactivity, as far as the outer world is concerned, but it can, and should, be a time of great activity in the inner life, and the surrounding material plane.

The message is clear. I have this time to get my heart, mind, body and spirit in sync. I want to feel really good about who I am. I want to be a big girl. I want to relinquish control which was an illusion at best. I have to move on.

While I am not working at an agency, this can be a period of great activity for me that I want to take advantage of. My son, of course, is one of the best gifts of this job loss. I have more time to spend with him. He's a delight, and even if he's bored hanging out with me, even if he keeps asking me if I can get a job so he can go back to daycare, it's still a benefit to us both that we get to spend this time together. It makes me want to ask for months and months of vacation time with my next employer.

Today, as we walked thru the beautiful Peninsula State Park,  the trees provided protection from the great gusts of wind that were howling, and I felt free from the clamp around my heart (thank you to all you prayer warriors). I was able to enjoy the moment with my son. We threw leaves up in the air. We made small piles of crispy foilage and kicked them at each other. We ran and raced. We played rockets with sticks. He hid under my arm when it began to drizzle. We played detective so we could locate my new favorite fingerless mittens that I had dropped (mission successful). We climbed a rock wall together several times. He posed while I shot some photos. And the cutest picture I wish I could have taken, is when I gave him my camera so he could take some photos of me. My little Bug. He was adorable today. I could have eaten him up he was so delicious. Thank you God for that little boy. Thanks to all of you who left comments lately, texted me, called me or emailed.

Today was definitely a gift.

Love you all.