The Rain is Gone

I don't know what has come over me but in a moment of pure idleness, I found a way to spend my hard-earned cash, and security at my bank was so concerned they put a hold on my bank card! Help!

First we can thank zappos.com for my new boots:



My Wellies have finally arrived now and will keep my feet dry (maybe not so-warm) and in tip-top fashion. I even modeled them for a certain someone and got a very positive response. :) Thankfully I didn't quite look as perturbed as this lovely waif, however as I postured myself in the boots I found the rubber scent had certain aphrodisiac powers ascribed to them. Not bad for clunky, sturdy boots designed for flooded trenches.


Next I happened upon Timberline.com and found this:


Hello Dear Wax Coat, which I shall fondly refer to hereon as my DWC. I have never owned one, I'm not even certain I need it or will be cozy comfy in it, but regardless, it's already on its way to my home.

I figured it will fare well with the new Wellies. In fact, I can think of a number of ways to incorporate the combo and be able to pull it off as sexy and cute.

Want to take a little closer look at DWC? She sure is quite lovely: (click on images to see details)




This is all part of the new me that is emerging. Hello MILF. I feel more beautiful and worthy than I have felt in a long, long time. It's as if I have awakened from a bad dream, came out of the rain, am warming up by the fire. I can breathe again. I am in love with life (and wine) and find that life is joyful. It's good — really good. I feel happy again. Full of life. Full of gratitude. Less fear. More confident, more secure. What has come over me? It's a miracle — all this time I've been praying for one, but I never thought it would come in the form of my own happiness! I have a reprieve from the sadness and grief; I'm not sure how long it will last, but I've grounded myself in it. I've added ballast to my foundation.

I've gone back and read some of my older posts these last couple days. I was so sad for so long. I was hurt and waiting, in limbo, unable to let go. I found ways to discount every single sign I was given. I chose to look the other way, to cling to hope, to believe in the best. That's not wrong, truly, by any means. However, I'm not that woman anymore. I am not her. I have come thru the fire, I survived the fire. I have made it 18 months on my own. I have maintained a job, a home, friendships and family relationships. My Peanut is happy and thriving. My relationship with God has been maintained and in reality, become stronger. I've made new friends in the last 18 months. They've become great allies to me; people I never would have met had I not gone thru this. I know I'm not done yet. There's still more to do. The legal aspect hasn't even started. The home Oliver and I are in will be gone some day. Even that doesn't hurt anymore. I am ready to let go of all of it.

The best part is I can see clearly now....

Sing it for me Mr Nash!!




I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.

I think I can make it now, the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is the rainbow I’ve been prayin’ for
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.

Look all around, there’s nothin’ but blue skies
Look straight ahead, nothin’ but blue skies

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.



Comments

  1. I could not be happier for you Andrea! I knew this day would come for you as it did for me. We make our own happiness don't look for others for this. I still have work to do on that front but I'm getting there. I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!! Love it, love it, love it. Dear friend you have made this a great Monday morning for me. I need to read your blog more often, for that l am sorry. Forgive me. Glad that the light has been shinning so brightly for you.
    Love and big hugs,
    Andy

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  2. Oh Andy, I so miss talking to you... :) x o x o

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