A Reminder of Why I Have to Be Strong


He's beautiful, funny and delightful.


He's playful, inquisitive and teachable.


He loves me, needs me and likes me.


He adores me, trusts me, relies on me.


He's strong, brave, and adventurous.


He's curious, fearless, and eager.


He's happy, free, and loved.


He sleeps in my arms, cuddles into my breast and knows how warm and safe that place is.


It's very difficult for me to break free at times...


From the loneliness, sadness and self-pity.


Yes, I had it good. Very good. I was loved. So very very loved.


It's hard to watch someone you love slip away, become someone you never ever thought you would have to deal with.


I don't want to do this, I don't want to do this life... but I have to, I absolutely have to keep on so that this little man will continue to feel safe, loved and secure. So that he will know for now and for ever that I love him. I think I am the best mom for him... I am. He is special, beautiful, kind, sensitive, sweet. He trusts me. And I just can't let him down. I am working my butt off to get over this with dignity. I fail at times, but I keep trying. For my son I have no choice anymore. I brought him into this world. I cannot let him down. I have to be strong.


  1. These are beautiful photos! I cannot believe I saw you today in person! Please come by that SB again... I am there almost without fail (of course there is always the rare exception) Mondays and Wednesdays from 5-6...

  2. Kari, I'm so happy to see you after what? 20 years? Really? Thank God for FB... :)

    You look great! Were those papers you were grading? I will do my best to stop by next Monday, but I have a running group that meets at 6pm. So we'll see.

    Hugs to you... thanks for commenting and reading as often as you do...

    x o x o x o

  3. Hi! Thanks for visiting my blog. Your photos here are beautiful. I love the inquisitiveness of your son looking in the puddle. I don't know exactly what difficulty you are facing or have faced, but I admire your courage and determination to carry on.


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