That I Would Be Good

It is with tears that I post this. I am done........ please please pray for me that I get thru this. I'm so so sorry, my dear dear sweet Oliver.



A friend of mine gifted this song to me today. Here's her message to me..... it's like she knew what I just realized.


Andrea, I heard this song again today (itunes Genius picked it for me, which I always think is God), and I thought of you and how you need to hear it . I love you sweetie- hang in there.

Friends, please don't call me. I need some time with just me, myself and my HP tonight. Thank you for your support. I'm going to need it moving forward. I'm scared. I just can't believe this is really happening to me. To my son.


That I Would Be Good

that I would be good even if I did nothing
that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick
that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that I would be great if I was no longer queen
that I would be grand if I was not all knowing

that I would be loved even when I numb myself
that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
that I would be loved even when I was fuming
that I would be good even if I was clingy

that I would be good even if I lost sanity
that I would be good
whether with or without you

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  1. you are always, always in my thoughts and prayers my friend. So is Oliver. I am scared with you. You dont deserve this Andrea. None of us that go through this deserves it. I will always be a call away or a keyboard away for you. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE to you.

    (((( )))) R

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  2. Listen to me, you are going to be better than fine. So much better than fine. You and Oliver. You are amazing. He is amazing. Take your time. Believe in yourself. Believe in your son. He's strong enough because you're strong enough. I'm here for you.

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  3. Praying for you right now.

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  4. thinking of and praying for you.

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