Today's the Day

Hi friends.... today I get to meet with my husband for our little check in to see how things are going. There's always a bit of fear surrounding that.

I also want to say one of the difficult things about this separation is saying good-bye to my cute little child. Today as I left for work my heart sank. I wont see him again until tomorrow. Sometimes this brings with it a sadness and even a bit of anger. Like I shared yesterday, it's one thing to lose a partner, but to have to share our son like this, in this manner, well, that's starting to hurt more than I can find words to describe.

I think our meeting will go well, at least that is my hope. The most beautiful thing about our separation, in addition to the personal reflection I've been doing, is that my husband and I have been nothing but polite and understanding to one another. There have been no unkind words said, no hurtful, manipulative or revengeful actions taken, and no harsh or mean criticism of one another. Instead, there has been an air of mutual respect. It's hard to believe that is the case, but it's true. That is the basis for a solid friendship and the building block for repairing our marriage.

I also want to thank all of you who have sent me supportive emails, helpful thoughts and kind words. The support I have received is astounding. In addition, no one has bashed my husband, and for that I'm grateful. I can do that on my own, thank you. It does me no good if I do. I have to stay in the solution. Your support means the world to me! I thank you! I receive your emails daily, and each one is a little gift to me. The fact that you keep us in your prayers means so much to me. I wholly believe in the supernatural power of prayer. Please continue to do so if you don't mind. Feel free to comment on the blog as well, or send me an email. Your effort is not small; it does not go unnoticed and powers me to keep my head above water, my feet firmly planted on the ground and my eyes on the road.

I will check back in later to let you know how our meeting went. I'll try not to let my fears get the best of me. Again, prayers are humbly accepted.