Full of joy

I wanted to make sure I wrote about this before peanut arrives. I'm really really enjoying being pregnant. Every minute of it! I know that life hasn't been exactly super easy due to this physical occurrence, but generally speaking, this is such a cool cool thing. I don't want to waste it by being too crabby or too self-centered. It's such a God thing, such a privilege to do what I'm doing.

I'm really not one of those people (prego ladies) who walk around wanting everyone to have sympathy for them. If you see me limp or scream in pain, it's because I really am. I'll prolly smile right afterwards or once it goes away, I'll carry on. I don't want to be one of those people who wants the world to feel sorry for her. Because I have nothing to feel sorry about (well, except for the fact that I never got that Bugaboo stroller that I wanted..... oh well). :) Maybe the Easter Bunny will bring it. :)

Anyway, it's such a great experience and so many wonderful things have happened in the last nine months. Women (and men) have held me up, made me feel like a princess, shared my joys and my tears (thanks to those hormones).

And realizing this about myself gave me an eye opener today. If it's like this for me while I'm prego, who's to say I wont be a (tired but) joyful new mother too? I think I've been in fear so much about that. I wondered if I'd love him, wondered if I'd change my mind...... but today I realized that I'm usually a very happy person and I really like to enjoy my life (because it's so short and I have so much to be grateful for). So why wouldn't motherhood be that way too? Why have I been living in such fear?

So tonight I go to bed with anticipation and one more time the realization that this is all going to be ok. Tough, but mostly good and OK. And probably joyful and fun and awesome too!


  1. Wow, I love how you think honey! This is a beautiful, positive post.



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