Mommydom vs Career Woman

I can’t even begin to mention how tough it is to watch one of my favorite clients and project opportunities to be given away to another designer. It’s so difficult to watch. I know that I am going to be working on one of the best projects eva, a baby, a sweet baby boy. Still, it’s hard to watch others work on a project that I am dying to get my hands on. In fact, I know I could do a really really good job on that project. It’s hard to have two loves...... A family and a career. I have a good friend who is really really pushing me to quit my job and be a stay-at-home mom. I just know I was not meant to do that. She didn’t know me very well when I was struggling as a waitress. I felt so ashamed each time someone I knew came into the restaurant. And I know that there’s nothing wrong with waiting tables. But I cannot help but mention how meaningful that parable from a great teacher is to me.... about the man who buried his talents in the sand. That was me. That’s why I felt horrible about waiting tables. It was not what I was supposed to be doing.

I just started my career only 3-4 years ago. I am not burnt out yet, and I’m just beginning to feel comfortable in my field. I see every project as a new opportunity for growth. To create a design, even if its meaningless to millions of people, is a high that I cannot describe. It’s so fulfilling. The work I get to do is fascinating and fun. And I will miss it for a while. I hope that when I return to work there will be other opportunities awaiting me.......

Of course, I'm perfectly willing to eat my words here. In fact, maybe some day I will. I have no idea what's in store for me.

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  1. The answer will come to you and you'll know what's right for you. Just be open to the universe. Maybe you'll stay full-time at your job, maybe you'll be full-time at home, maybe you'll find another firm that allows you to work parti-time, maybe you'll start your own firm. The possibilities are endless and you'll know when the time comes!

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